Trusting God In Uncertain Times

In early 2017, my husband lost his job. I was self-employed at the time and lost a customer weeks later. Spring 2017 was an anxious time for me and I wondered why God had taken that little bit of financial security away from us. With apparently nothing left to lose, I could only look to God and ask Him to show me the way. By autumn 2017, I was back at university to do my MA and a few weeks later we found out that I was pregnant with our son, a gift which made us feel incredibly blessed at the end of that tough year. God had led us on a completely new path – one which still lacks man-made security, but which taught me to trust God in a way I have never trusted Him before.

Four years later, Covid-19 has robbed us all of a lot of security we used to take for granted: jobs, school, most of our social lives, health and even have loved ones who died from the virus. Life has become incredibly unpredictable, defined by weeks of lockdown, and news on vaccinations and numbers of infections per day. We are blind, stumbling through the darkness, living in uncertainty. It is painfully obvious that we are not in control.

Sometimes this is what it takes for us to really trust the Lord. It is easier to trust Him completely when that is the only choice we have left because there is nothing (and nobody) else to rely on. That was my experience in 2017. I had been clinging to shreds of imagined security, even though that meant a lack of progress in many ways. Only when I had no choice but to trust God, was I ready to let Him guide me, even into uncertainty, and He is always there, always providing for us. In the middle of this pandemic, we can only rely on God – He will guide us through this uncertain time and never leave us. Even when we feel helpless and lost, God is in control and that is enough.

Lord, please help us to remember to trust you and to keep our eyes on you. Thank you that we can rely on you even when we feel lost. Amen.